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Letting Go

tin22tin22 Member Posts: 731 ✭✭✭✭
edited August 2002 in General Discussion
I know, I have been in this board room for a couple of times. I must say the people in this board room are lot mature then other ones, I have seen. At times I find you to be more mature and wise.

I have been in a relationship with someone for like two years. We have broke up once before and got back together, but the guy sent me home next time.He felt that I was not trying to do anything with my life. He could not stand watching it anymore, so he ended the relationship. I must admit that I had some poor luck finding work, and driving to find work, I could not do since I didn't know how. I was like in my twenty's when we moved in together, and fact that he had already had a job and a car. I didn't quiet do those things yet kind of put lot problems in are relationship. Anyway; when he sent me home the second time, I didn't know I would never come back. He had told me that he lost his job, but real deal was he wanted out. I was total depressed when this happen. I wanted things to workout, and I felt bad about the things that I did. I didn't want to let go of what we had together, and lot of reason I loved him. I guess, I thought we could work things out. I didn't unpack my suitcase, and I tried to see if we could work things out. Guys would ask me out, but my heart was still in love with him. We talked and he has moved on, and found other people. At first I just cried a lot, there was guy who saw me crying. He was older and married and worked in the Navy. He asked me what was wrong,and I told him. He said that he might have loved me from the beginning, but he didn't love me as deeply as I loved him. He said if he was a christian men then he would been there for you, and worked until you could find work. That he would have not broke up with you for something like this. That you him would talk and found ways to work things out. He give me some good advice. I still at times wake up in the morning feeling sad, because I miss him. A lot of times I feel my world is crashing down before me. There are times when I don't want to get up in the morning. My sister told me that I need to remember and tell myself; Is he lying here crying like you? Does he feel like you do? Has he looked you in the face, and actually see what he has done? Has he tried to work things out with you? All the answer are no. I never thought this would happen. I never been in a mess like this before. I was usually the one trying to look for something true. Things didn't workout, because he give up. I always thought that Love hopes for all thing, endure all things, does not look for it's own interest. I guess in some ways, he was not ready? I guess in some ways I wasn't either. I know this I loved him was willing to workout whatever it was that kept are relationship from going farther. I have to now move on, and try to heal a little. It's going to take me some time. I guess, I just wanted to talk with someone.

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  • susiesusie Member Posts: 7,665 ✭✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    There is a reason for each thing that happens in our life. We may not always get what we ask for, but we get what we need. Use this as a way to take a fresh look at your life. What do you want and what do you need to do to get there? You were able to step out of your cocoon and shoot for the first time as an extension of the relationship that has just ended. What other things are you ready to try now that you know you are capable of exploring new things? If you don't drive and that has been a hindrance, take driving lessons. Pursue a higher education if only at night school or weekend classes. Try different courses until you find what you enjoy and then grab it and go with it. My experience has been that we have one truly heartbreaking love that is not meant to be, but this is the one that makes you grow up and find who you are. You then find the one to spend your life with and it will be much deeper and broader than the first. Some people do not find themselves so lucky and marry the first one and are miserable after a few years which leads to divorce with the possibilty of children involved. The love you find will be a different type, one where you maintain your sense of self inside the relationship and not just an extension of your mate. Enjoy your freedom and explore who you are.

    ***There's a difference between living and living well!***
  • tin22tin22 Member Posts: 731 ✭✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    To: susie

    Why is it that we get the heartbreak first? Why don't we ever find a person who is true, and willing to be patient with you? Why do we find a person who was true to you at first, but saw some flaws in you and leave later. Not saying he didn't have right to leave the relationship. At times, I ask myself why didn't he just be patient with me. Encourage me, and help me little so that I can do the things I didn't do before I moved in with him. He knew then that I did'nt have the things he had. Then when we broke up he acts if I did everything, and that's why it didn't work. He never once said that we both just didn't help each other out. We should have talked more. Things like that. Susie thanks for advice.
  • ladrladr Member Posts: 263 ✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    Try writing Dear Abby.

    NO GUTS, NO GLORY
  • pikeal1pikeal1 Member Posts: 2,707
    edited November -1
    Tin, I was in a relationship similar to yours...well...sort of. only difference was that i was the one that was lacking. I didn't get out of the house much, spent most of my time infront of the computer and didn't give her the attention she deserved. It blew up in my face and no matter how much i tried justifying it...there was only so much she could take. We broke up and after the fact, i realized the error of my ways. Take this as a painful lesson in life. Get driving lessons and get your liscense, get a job (even if it means flipping burgers for a while till you find something better) and get yourself a means of transportation. Look at your life from the outside, and ask yourself if you are the person you thought you would be when you were a kid.

    Take the steps necessary to get to that place you want to be at. It might take a couple of months or a couple of years...but the satisfaction that you are making progress towards your goal is priceless. Don't stay home feeling sorry for yourself. Get all the crying and sobbing out of the way and move on with your life. No matter how much your heart insists on the possibility of losing your one true love, there will always be someone else...and they might be staring you straight in the face for a while before you realize it.

    thats what happened to me, and now, I'm in a great relationship with a great girl and I couldn't be happier. No fights, no arguments, and sincere happiness when we are together.

    Think of the ways that you did things before. The things that he liked and the ones he didn't. Remember to keep the good things, and change the bad ones. You seem like a younger person and rest assured, this wont be the last time you'll go through this. It won't kill you and will only make you a little stronger and a little wiser. You'r not alone...everyone has had their heart broken a few times...if we didn't, life wouldn't be any fun.

    Alex
  • rameleni1rameleni1 Member Posts: 998 ✭✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    I would get your own life straightened out first. The not driving, and the no job thing can't be the reason for the breakup. You said you had both of these problems when you met. I think a few pieces of the puzzle are missing here.

    Rameleni1
  • 96harley96harley Member Posts: 3,992 ✭✭
    edited November -1
    Tin,
    The world lacks a thing called committment.I'm not going to preach about the ills of shacking up but if the guy really loved you in the beginning he would have asked you to marry him. Maybe it's just a lesson in life. We all learn and we all make mistakes. Sometimes it's hard to face our mistakes. I know, I've made a lot of them and wished someone would have preached at me but I was so full of pride and stuborness it would have done no good however.
    There's something better ahead for you. You'll get back on the mountain top.
  • Jungle JimJungle Jim Member Posts: 264
    edited November -1
    I heard a song one time titled " I Can't Find Another Love 'Til I Find Me".

    The person that wrote it was going thru what you are going thru now.

    Experience has taught me that the pain you're experiencing now won't last forever. The time will come when it will stop hurting.

    You'll never forget, but it won't hurt anymore.

    You've been given a lot of good advice by people more qualified than I ever would be; but what I did when going thru a similar situation is concentate on an affirmation. That affirmation was "No More Pain".

    Everytime I thought about it, I'd tell myself "No More Pain".
    Eventually, it came to pass.

    God bless you and good luck.
  • mcneely77mcneely77 Member Posts: 411 ✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    I know that it is a tuff time, but try to think of it as a clean slate. Now you have the opportunity to do all the things you want to do before you get married, have children and settle into life. Take a trip, go camping by yourself for a weekend in the wilderness away from everything. Make a list of your priorities and how you plan to obtain the real things you want in life. I know that they say time heals all wounds, for your sake, I hope they are right. Good luck.

    Do not mistake my kindness for weakness.

    IALEFI, ASLET, NRA, and proud owner of a pair of S&W revolvers.
  • v35v35 Member Posts: 12,710 ✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    There's no other way to say it. You have to build up your self esteem and value to the society.
    1-Get back to school. Clean up your English and learn a marketable skill.
    2-Get a drivers' licence.
    3-Get a job.
    4-get a car.
    Then you can think about another relationship and not before you can stand on your own two feet. Being totally dependent on someone else as you are, scares a lot of men away. A serious relationship should come last in your plans.
    Sympathy is not going to buy you anything. It is you who have to do
    constructive things with your life or continue to be a victim.
  • dads-freeholddads-freehold Member Posts: 1,361 ✭✭✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    greetings, ok tin, i have been seeing this post relationship depression in your post for some time now. and as i stated in another post to you some things need to be forgotten. now that's not easy, but it is life. it's alright to cry and feel bad as long as you don't let depression control your life.rage or throw things if you have to, but come to a point where you say enough and go on with your life. talk it out with some one you trust, but the hard questions that don't have definitive answers just learn to accept. tin you need to accept yourself, and know that you have worth. you have to come to grips with the past and take control. take some time out before jumping into another relationship.set some realistic goals for yourself. remember your happiness depends on you and not on things or any body else.as bill and ted would say be excellent to yourself. if you need to vent we are here. respt submitted dads-freehold
  • will270winwill270win Member Posts: 4,845
    edited November -1
    Realize that the big flaming ball that makes us hot, will rise again tomorrow and every other day after that. We've all probably lost at love and realized that time is the only healer. Breaking out of your depression is good medicine to help time out a little. Life ain't perfect, but you must make yourself happy with or without the "lost love". No one is going to do it for you.

    Best of luck to you, I think things will be okay for you if you just learn to enjoy happiness by yourself for a change.


    ~Secret Select Society Of Suave Stylish Smoking Jackets~
    Will270win@nraonline.com
  • susiesusie Member Posts: 7,665 ✭✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    Tin,

    To address your question as to why you could not have stayed together and changed together I am going to give you an example of what is about to happen. You are each young and still in the larvae stage of life, searching for yourselves, deciding who and what you will be as you grow and change. Each of you is now cocooning, evolving, one into the military (support system) and the other home (support system) where it is safe to grow and find new things. Each of you will come out different from what you were. One will be a butterfly the other a moth. Similar to each other, but too different to be together. You could not stay together because you are each becoming different people and not the same people you each fell in love with when you first met.

    My first true love was going through a divorce and was six years older than me. He had kids and a life. I was in college starting mine. He knew I had to experience life and discover who I was so we are not together. Did it break my heart? Yes. Am I happy? Yes. That was over 22 years ago and I have been happily married to one man for the last 19 years and have a college education and four beautiful children. I have traveled the world and lived in Europe for eight years. Had I stayed with the first love I would never have experienced all the wonderful things life has offered. I didn't know that then and you will not know what life has for you.

    Again, I say take your time, explore the possibilities. There are no limits to who or what you can become. The only limits are the ones you set. Keep us posted as you weigh your choices. Each person here is at a different stage in their life and can offer opinions and alternatives that you may not see from your perspective.

    If you attend church, let the parishners know your plight as far as not knowing how to drive. Ask if there are any there who would volunteer some free time to teach you to drive. Get involved with your community to find what is available to further your education.

    good luck

    ***There's a difference between living and living well!***
  • ccasey612ccasey612 Member Posts: 901 ✭✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    This board is starting to remind me of a Dear Abby show of some sort.

    If you will blame gun makers for every shooting then blame car maker for every car accident.
  • NighthawkNighthawk Member Posts: 12,022 ✭✭✭
    edited November -1
    Im sorry for your heartache but it sounds like it was his loss not yours.I know that doesnt help much,I wish there were something I could say to ease your pain but time will heal your wounds,just dont let it permentely scar you.


    Best!!

    Rugster


    Toujours Pret
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