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danielgage

a friend and co-worker shot and killed himself this week we had a graveside service today

man it was tough

I was proud to be a pall-bearer for his family

but man it hurts

I have missed him so much this week and I know that ain't going away anytime soon

sorry guys just needed to share

danielgage

thanks ole boy

mmppres

So sad to hear. Prayers for all.

Horse Plains Drifter

Prayers for your friend and you from here.

danielgage

thanks my GunBroker friends

montanajoe

Dammit!!! I'm sorry to hear this. I lost a friend the same way just over a year ago. Still hurts. Prayers.

Warbirds

Sorry for your loss.

danielgage

thanks everyone

toad67

Put my Dad and G'dad into the ground the same day, back to back, as well as a back to back funeral for two of my best friends... It does seem to get easier, maybe because you become numb, or choose to pull in, either way it sucks. Life goes on, and the longer you live, the more you see it. Prayers for you, Daniel, and your friend and his family...

danielgage

thanks

spasmcreek

years ago in 1968 a fellow came to run the experiment field where i was a tech...best friends till i helped carry him to the grave....damn...sure miss him......tough going on but you will make it....our memories keep them alive

Smitty500mag

Sorry for your loss.

My best friend did the same thing back in '89. I still think of him everyday.

danielgage

I sure am experiencing a lot of emotions sad,mad,angry,and occasionally happy when I think of the good times we had on this earth

sure is strange feelings that I can't seem to control

sorry guys

just grieving I reckon

thanks to everyone of you

Grasshopper

imo, You were and is his friend, I mean to tell you don't blame him. NOBODY knows what evil and monkeys ones mind has to carry be it mental or physical. I for one know about the mental state is very fragile and can be tripped via many things. God rest his soul, God to with his family and close friends like yourself.
Flame on guys if you want but that is the way I see it.

allen griggs

Very sad. Who knows what is going on, when the suicide demon is dancing around in some guy's head.

pulsarnc

My younger brother shot and killed himself in feb of 2018.Never knew that he was in any distress or having problems and I saw / worked with him almost daily . You never know what demons are chasing folks . May God have mercy on his soul and may you find peace .

danielgage

thanks everyone

danielgage

thank you

ChrisStreett

Dan, please know that the range of emotions you?re feeling are perfectly normal. Losing a friend under any circumstances is a terrible thing. Losing one in this manner can often leave us asking ?why? for years. Unfortunately, often there is no answer. Grieve in your own way, don?t be afraid to reach out if you need to talk thru some things. You?re experiencing a natural reaction to an unnatural situation. Many, many times there are no indicators before the event. As stated several times above, you seldom know what demons are haunting someone. If you need to talk this thru some feel free to pm me and I?ll give you my number.

danielgage

thanks I am reaching out to my GunBroker forum buddies and thank all of you

you all have helped me numerous times and I do appreciate you all

I know I will be fine but it helps to share and hear advice and I know some of you have experienced this first hand too

just grieving

thank you all for the prayers, advice, thoughts, and sharing your experiences

you all are AWESOME

Brookwood

Sorry to hear Danial. Lost a very close friend last year the same way. It was a shock then and it still is today, I'm sad to say. You either get numb and let it go or you hold on to your ways and hope that someday you will get to a place that will lift your spirits.

Pretty sure that place won't come until I cross over myself. Getting older is hard and it is just one of those things that come with all the added years of life. I offer you my prayers, sympathy, and comfort and hope you will find peace in the time ahead. Joel

danielgage

thank you

dav1965

I have had 4 friends of my best friends die of suicide.

There were 4 of us hanging out after work one day and my very best friend said he was going home and killing himself. Well we laughed and told him we would see him tomorrow at work and he laughed and then left.

Within an hour the MPs have came and notified us.

To this day it bothers the * out of me. He was laughing and joking and we had no idea he was hurting so bad. It always crosses my mind why? Im the type of person who is the one if in a group i am always the one keeping up with everybody making sure they are ok. I very seldom drink in public and will never get drunk in public.

Now that i am advanced in years 54 lol and been through the darker parts of life. Cancer and other things i can somewhat understand why you might decide to check out but i would rather know why you make your decision.

danielgage

thanks

hillbille

while it may be easier on the one who does the act, I don't think any of them ever realize how hard it is on the remaining family and friends who can't understand the act itself. sorry for your loss

danielgage

Yes Sir thank you

danielgage

been a month and I still cannot get it off my mind

I know I need to quit thinking about it so much but wow it is hard to do

Ditch-Runner

sorry for the loss of your friend .and prayers to the family and friends
I have lost family and friends in the same manner . I will always remember them . time does not take away the pain but does make it a bit more bearable

yoshmyster

You're a better man than me. I don't know if I could if one of my friends off themselves. That includes me showing up for the planting. Maybe I might say or do something different if it's stage 4 thing or where they'll die ugly. We'll see.

Bubba Jr.

I've been a pall bearer many many times. The worst one for me was the first one. A friend of mine was out cruising around in his 55 Chevy with another friend of mine. He went around a curve too fast and rolled the car. He was thrown out of the car and the car landed on top of him pinning him beneath the roof. He was only 17 years old. Had just gotten married, and had a daughter on the way.

He was adopted and was always a wild child, but once you got to know him, he was a decent kid. The thing that stands out to me as we carried him to his grave was that the tears were running down my face so much that I could barely see where I was going. Hanging on to the coffin was the only way I found my way to the grave site.

Don McManus

danielgage wrote:

I sure am experiencing a lot of emotions sad,mad,angry,and occasionally happy when I think of the good times we had on this earth

sure is strange feelings that I can't seem to control

sorry guys

just grieving I reckon

thanks to everyone of you

I think you are correct.

Once you are through the grieving, you will be left with the happy thoughts of the good times.

All the best to you and to your friends family.

Don

roswellnative

prayers from my home to yours

kimi

Very sorry to read this. Prayers for everyone.

asphalt cowboy

I went through all the stages of grief, and then some I hope others never face.
It took me seven or eight years to learn these two things.

Grief is all that love, with nowhere to go.

While it will subside, grief never goes away. You just find ways to cope with their absence.

Prayers and kind thoughts that you and family find healthy ways to cope with his absence.

danielgage

thank you all

I appreciate each one of you and your prayers

THANKS